I just realized what this said today, my dreams!!!! Well it sure as hell is not sitting in this Blue chair looking out windows at a world I haven’t yet finished seeing its beauty, I still want to learn of things I want watch my kids grow, graduate HS, [...]

Have you ever been in a war, with your body, well I am, and it sucks, I’m  done, I don’t know what to do to win this war, they tell me I will fight this war forever so I have to fight for the rest of my life, but I [...]

They say your scars show that you survived, your past, but I don’t always see it that way, I see it as wounds of my heartache, of what I went through, as if chapters, reminders of days gone by, of  pain that I have went through that I wish I [...]

They say I have to have this to live but at the same time it is killing me, Just at a slower pace you see, when I heard I had cancer I had no idea that I had it, no clue, until they removed the 10lb. mass that was hidden [...]

Who is this person looking in the mirror, it’s suppose to be me, but I honestly don’t recognize this person, its not me, I remember having long thick hair, bright eyes, color in my cheeks, will in my face, now all I see is this person who is lost in [...]

When you know what is going to happen do you welcome it with open arms or do you fear it, let me tell you the fear is real, when you get it, once and you don’t want to get it twice, because you can’t eat , drink, are even talk [...]