When you know what is going to happen do you welcome it with open arms or do you fear it, let me tell you the fear is real, when you get it, once and you don’t want to get it twice, because you can’t eat , drink, are even talk well, I am telling you people say they understand, but do they, I, mean do they…. the pain, the shame, the loneliness, the julting, the sores….just not normal not being you anymore being a new you, but really not liking the new you but having to accept you……

Close your eyes and dream of the old you, for you are lost, this is the new you forever more. Just tell your body your sorry for getting cancer if you must but it won’t change the matter. Cry the tears of fear day after day, but they will dry up one day and then what will you do?

See when the time comes that you have to be the strong one, when my tear fall no more then you my dear have to pull your fear together, lets figure this out, first of all you need to know that I’m happy, pain free, and all those prayers of stregth that ever prayed for my worked for I am in the best place I could be in Heaven the strongest, happiest, and pain free place ever now I’m just waitng for all of you, So do the right thing and be the best and the strongest for the living I’m good, promise, just like I was on earth….

On earth I am strong and good except, when fear is real, Heaven is wainting for me. God has me here on earth, He wants me to live a long life, he will find a cure for me, I feel it, I don’t know it if will be while I’m still alive though, but I have faith the they will find a cure for Appendix Cancer. You have to BELIEVE!!!